I spoke on the need to break the stigma. Last year, my message was positive and driven.
This year, this is the year it’s tough for me. Because I feel like I’ve been beaten. I’m worn out, I’m struggling, and I feel like every day is a fight.
I don’t talk about it because I still feel like I don’t have the right to. Even in knowing that this stigma needs to be broken, I get caught up in it sometimes.
I feel like life is flying by at full force and I’m struggling just to make it out of bed each day. Despite being on medication, there are points when this still gets the better of me. When life is already kicking me when I’m down, it makes it harder for the medication to keep me on solid ground.
There are times when I stop asking for help, when I refuse to go up for prayer at church because I feel like I will be judged for crying so much and looking so broken all the time. I hold back because I’m afraid of what others will think. I hold back because I feel like after a while, everyone stops caring. I hold back, because I don’t know where to go for support.
This year, I’m feeling strangled by financial burdens caused by this illness, caused because I couldn’t get help. I’m feeling stressed because of goings ons and lonely because my friends are all in places I can’t really see them much.
But this is what Let’s Talk is about. And this is why there is hope. This is about learning that it’s okay to talk, it’s okay to share and it’s okay to seek help. Because no matter how bleak it may seem, we are never in this alone.
So this year, I want you to share what’s going on with you. This year, I want you to tell me how you’re struggling, and through this, we can start working on breaking that stigma.
So come on, Let’s Talk.