Selfish Gain

We all are selfish at times. Sometimes we lose track of where the line of determination and self-care/support becomes selfish pursuit. It’s easy to convince ourselves that we are doing things for others, when in fact, it’s all about us.

There are a lot of selfish people within the Church. People who take advantage of the hearts and generosity of others. There are lots of wonderful people too — don’t get me wrong. But we have a habit of elevating people whose hearts and minds are said to be looking towards Christ, but little by little we discover they are more concerned with their own platform than people.

These people are not inherently bad. Anyone who is elevated runs the risk of letting it become their personal platform. It happens all the time. But when we purposely choose ourselves over loving our friends and the people we claim to be in support of, we choose to be selfish. We choose to follow a God who focuses on us rather than others. And so a mask goes on to proclaim it’s about God and everyone, when in reality, it’s all about self.

When you find the ones with the masks, those are the most heartbreaking.

They speak words of love and affirmation in public and destruction behind closed doors.

I haven’t written poetry in a long time. But this came to me amidst processing some of the pain and hurt I’ve experienced recently.

I still believe in a community of Christians that truly follow Jesus and want to focus on blessing the world instead of taking from it. But it can be so much harder to find that. All too often, that hope seems to wane.

Selfish Gain

When did faith become about fame,
where relationships are traded-in
for the hopes of a share by a name?
When people and friends, truth and
transparency,
are traded in for shrouded secrecy,
designed to mask growing duplicity.
Shams and scams
are the fruits of labour,
while friendships are sacrificed
in the hopes of earning favour
by establishments known
for exclusion.
Hateful, vile words, are called out as love
while simply existing is considered
as the pushing of an agenda.
This is not love, it is not God.
It is not a calling or being true to the Lord.
When asking for people to ‘send you their seed’,
in exchange for an “anointed cloth”
Is seen as ‘faithful’,
but teaching people to love is hateful.
This mask is not furthering the kingdom of God,
it’s selfishness masked in a self-righteous,
self-fulfilling state of fraud.
But we see through your heart,
and it’s chained in fear;
fear of being nobody. It drives every
ounce of your life.
You’re not satisfied with just following Jesus,
who gave up everything to be a nobody.
To be the one who cared for the least,
instead of someone whose posts go viral,
who’s been sucked into that corporate spiral.
When they spoke about false prophets
and wolves in sheep’s clothing,
they weren’t talking about the ones who stand
shouting for the oppressed, the broken,
or the disenfranchised.
It was always about the ones focused on names,
who traded in the hurting
for a stage.

Comments

  1. Tim

    I really love the concept of Jesus as a person. He genuinely seems like his heart was in the right place as a human. And yes, I get that that’s an obvious thing to say, particularly to someone who believes that he is the son of God. But looking at him as someone who doesn’t have any religious conviction, I still find his teachings to be invaluable because of the lessons of selflessness he taught. One of the biggest things I think gets lost on people is how giving he was, not just because he could, but because it was the right thing to do. Being selfless is truly a Christ-like action, in my estimation.

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      Tabitha

      I agree wholeheartedly. I think, even if I stopped believing in Jesus as God, I would still admire and follow him as a person, because his pursuits were admirable. He sought to make the world a better place and to love those the world deemed unlovable. That’s a pretty strong message, God or not.

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