Control is an illusion worsening anxiety

control

Living by faith when you are a person who needs to be in control is difficult. Although there are many reasons driving the need to constantly be in control, it is not something easily turned off. In my case, the overwhelming need to be in charge, to control my life, is a mixture of the effect of my mental illnesses and unresolved issues from childhood. If I am in control, I cannot be hurt and I only fail based on[Read more]

Christmas with the Wells

Christmas

Something I don’t often talk about on here is how I am just a *little* bit obsessed with decorating. Especially at Christmas. I’m one of those people who attempts to decorate at least something in every room. Lights, candles, wall stickers, ornaments, you name it! Christmas is the time for me to go wild. This was our second Christmas living in the upstairs of the house, giving me the opportunity to revamp how I decorated last year a bit. I have[Read more]

Changing lives with a call, text or tweet

Imagine waking up every day and having to convince yourself to get out of bed. Not because it’s warm, or comfortable, or because you don’t want to work or go to school, but because for an inexplicable reason the sheer idea of getting out of bed is equally exhausting and terrifying. You don’t know why, but the thought of facing your day makes you feel extreme dread; a bubbling darkness threatening to swallow you whole. You make it to work[Read more]

The Gift-Knight’s Quest

I’ve had the pleasure of knowing the author of The Gift-Knight’s Quest, Dylan Madeley for just over 10 years now. We met via the Toronto NaNoWriMo chat rooms my first year participating and in person the following year when I began attending ToNaNo events. When he mentioned during this year’s NaNo he was looking for people to read the sequel to this book, I jumped on it. I hadn’t read the first book yet, so of course, I had to[Read more]

2016 Year In Review

  Yeah, 2016? F*** you.

Debunking the ‘war’ on Christmas

Each year, without fail, the posts on social media come. People who wear their faith as if it were their clothing – always in the open, apparent, and visible – who are well-meaning, posting about the war on Christmas. The posts are often about how the world is taking away the meaning of Christmas, forcing their progressive beliefs, or other religious beliefs, to be accepted above Christianity. While Canada was not actually founded on Christian beliefs, Christianity was still the[Read more]

Fast cars are my only vice

  Many of you have noticed I wasn’t around for the longest time. Some of my more recent posts (which have been quite spread out) were a little more intense. Largely, this was due to a 4 1/2 month medical leave followed by a massive job hunt. Some are already aware I am no longer working for the newspaper. For those who aren’t, uhm, surprise? Before I dive back into my ever so deep, intense, and thought provoking *cough* posts,[Read more]

When they go low, I will go high

As an INFJ, it is incredibly easy for me to feel discouraged and downtrodden when I feel like the fight for humanity is losing. Equally so, it is that very discouragement driving me forward with a passion to keep fighting for change and encouraging people (myself included) to be better and to do more. I won’t say we are at a pivotal point in history because there will always be moments in which the entire direction of humanity changes. But[Read more]

Facing change head on

Last week, I read a post by a dear young lady I’ve known for a while about some of the change she is facing in her life. As I am about to face a large change in my own life, it made me quite introspective about it all. I am the kind of person who is terrified of change. For years, it was difficult to understand why. But, as I grow to learn more about myself and of how my[Read more]

It’s 4am, and I can’t sleep

It’s 4am, and despite everything, sleep has eluded me tonight. I’ve spent the day trying to write articles, to no avail. My brain has refused to shut off, while also refusing to turn on. It’s an odd place to be in mentally. I had thought by this point I would be back full-fledged into blogging, finding a healthy work/life balance, and simply moving forward. Blogging has been harder than I expected, not because of a lack of time, but I[Read more]